MsAnn wants to know all about Her gurls!
INTERVIEW WITH ASHLEIGH!
BY Ms Ann’s Girl steph!
GREAT INTERVIEW GIRLS!
Steph: Thank you again for doing this..HUGS
Steph: How long have you been coming to community kink?
ashleigh: My first introduction to anything to do with the LDW GROUP was in 2006
when i found the sissyschool.com message board. i left for a while for personal reasons
and when i came back in 2008 i found the community kink chat.
Steph: Why do you keep coming back?
ashleigh: i don’t even think MsAlly had named the company LDW back then.
Steph: So.. why do you keep coming back?
ashleigh: that is hard , i don’t want to say it wrong! i keep coming back because i’m honestly addicted to our chat group.
ashleigh: i left sissyschool for several years, due to life issues. i’d rather not discuss publicly, but when i came back, i found chat and that MsAlly had expanded so vastly. i was sooo surprised once i started in chat about one year ago.
Steph: and it made you feel more comfortable these changes?
ashleigh: It did, yes, and i think that the reason i come back to chat is that it is fun, open, and kinky yet classy, it’s something i cannot find anywhere else on the internet. i come back for the group that i chat with regularly (you know) and also, god this is soo cheesy, i feel home. Like i’m with my best friends, because other than my friends i hang out with and converse with, my chat friends are really my true friends. i sometimes tell them things even my real life friends don’t know!
Steph: What are your thoughts on having a sissy magazine for sissies… and ran or published by sissies?
ashleigh: my honest thoughts….
Steph: Sure…think it is helpful..
ashleigh: i think it is fantastic! I think that it is a great way for sissies to be interactive and learn about each other….and in that way…help each other. As far as being run and published by sissies, i think that is only fitting, as it is of course a sissy magazine. As a woman at heart, i think it’s a great idea, and i support it wholeheartedly.
Steph: Glad that you think it’s a great idea….
ashleigh: i really do, and you know i will be reading too!
Steph: I think is also a wonderful idea…
Steph: What do you consider yourself to be.. a sissy, crossdresser. or transgender..? I might add.. that if you feel uncomfortable in any response.. just say pass.. and we’ll go to next question.
ashleigh: This may take a minute, though i think it will be good. At first as a young teen, i considered myself a crossdresser, as i got older I became a sissy. i had chores from my ex wife and such, and did them dutifully. i liked being a sissy, in the last three years, i became fully transgendered…or at least androgynous. i took various estrogens and phytoestrogens during my sissy phase and i did grow small breasts , etc etc. When i was 26, i did take hormones for quite a while, but i’m not fully transitioned by any means. Oddly, when i was 26, i met a woman named steph. stephanie was a great woman she had been through some really abusive relationships with men. She had a controlling girlfriend. We fell in love and i thought that i could break her out of her “spell” that her girlfriend put on her, and at the same time, i was finally opening up to being truly bisexual and not just as a thought, but really bisexual. Stephanie opened up a new world to me, and i hope i opened her eyes to the fact that people with a penis aren’t always mean. Though she had been in the glbt community long enough to know that i just wanted her to know that i really really cared for her. Anyway, her girlfriend found out she was two timing with me and it all fell apart. i haven’t seen or spoken with steph for over three years, i really could have loved her for real. Between the choices given
i guess, i am none, i am closest to a transexual but i really think i’m androgynous.
Steph: hmmm, perhaps for those that may be reading this.. what is androgynous?
ashleigh: A song by garbage!!!! kidding! ok androgny is the state of having characteristics of both sexes without any one characteristic set dominating the other
according to the ashleigh dictionary!
Steph: Do you consider wearing female clothes a fantasy, fetish or lifestyle….know there are sisies out there trying to define fantasy fetish or lifestyle..
ashleigh: No…combine fantasy/fetish into one (my advice) i think for many people it is a fetish and a fun one! i still get a kick out of it! and also it’s a lifestyle. The question is not whether or not it is a fetsh or a lifestyle, but rather what the person wearing said clothes believes and feels. For many it is a fetish, it certainly was for me at one point…and for many years. Now it is a lifestyle. Wearing female clothes as a man, as a genetic man, i should say, is either a fetish or a lifestyle or both it is up to the individual to decide i can’t answer that definitively! eye of the beholder!
Steph: that’s a good response, and agree eye of the beholder…
Steph: Now the next question ties into this one..What do you typically wear and how often do you dress up?
ashleigh: OMG! i’ll do my best on this one. What i wear typically is my bra ( a must), and my panties, over that i wear what suits the occasion and it depends on who i am with. Sometimes when i’m around “the guys” i wear of course male attire, when i’m out with some of my female friends and glbt friendly friends i go all out!!!!! My outward appearance is definitely determined by circumstance. As to how often i “dress up?” i don’t see it as dressing up per se, but i do my best to dress en femme everyday. Even if it is sometimes alone. I dress every day basically! Before i was in the current living arrangement i’m in now, i dressed almost all day every day. i can’t do that as freely now, but it’s ok! That’s one of the reasons i stay up all night! *giggles*
Steph: I believe you indicated earlier that you have been dressing since a early age… Does anyone else know… did you tell them ? or did you get caught?
ashleigh: Several people know. This is where most would pass on this one, but i’ll be true. My mother and stepfather know, my ex wife knows, and a few friends. i never was caught, but once when i was very angry with my mother over something that was probably petty, i decided while she was at the store to dress completely femme just to annoy her, it worked! She had no idea her “son” was a woman. i think it still bugs her!
Steph: Do you believe its good to be upfront and honest about dressing up female to your friends, girlfriend or wife?
ashleigh : Difficut to answer, as each person and situation is different. For me, i have always been honest with women in my life, and some liked it, some did not. As far as friends, it depends on their mentality. Some are ready to accept it and some aren’t.
i consider myself a good judge of character, and know when to and when not to. Don’t dress up for your hillbilly redneck marlboro man neighbor! though…he may like that actually!
Steph: If you could spend 24 hrs with Ms Ann, how would you spend those 24 hrs?
ashleigh: lol @ brown nose question!!!!!!!!
ashleigh: let me think
Steph: Smiles.. Ms Ann asked me to ask this question.. SMILES…
sexyashleighgrl : 24 hours? Of course i’m going to want to be dominated and such, but that’s not what i was thinking. i would really reallly like to spend that time getting to know each other, having a few good meals….a nice restaurant….a movie…(i sound sooo dumb). i would love to pick MsAnn’s brain for a while! i may learn a lot, so i think ultimately i really would spend at least 16-18 hours getting to know MsAnn. i think the other 6-8 would totally be spent…..wasting my time? *giggles*
Steph : giggles…and smiles…
Steph: What would your advice be to someone who is just strarting out discovering that they have a femine side to themselves?
ashleigh: i would need an age range. That makes a big difference. See for me it was 8, that’s why i asked, so i”ll go with 18. My advice to someone would be, Learn learn learn! Read books on all things femme, read female authors, read books on femininity, learn everything! Watch genetic women, see their movements…mannerisms. Learn how women interact, and then step back, and think am i lilke that, or do i desire to be like that? If so, great. Make sure it’s a decision that is appropriate. No rush….all good things take time. It’s taken me 21 years and i’m only 29! In a nutshell, learn, watch, absorb!
Steph: Really great advice Ashleigh…Thank you. Just want to be sure if there’s anything else to add .. before we close this interview….
ashleigh: hmmm. Everyone knows in their heart, where they fit on the scale. Follow that part of you, no matter what it is, crossdressing, transgender, etc. Just follow your heart! That’s all!
Steph: ashleigh, this concludes our interview. Thank you very much.. It has been a honor and privilage to interview you for the premier edition of Ms Ann’s Sissy magazine….
ashleigh: thank you steph!