FANTASIES OF A SISSY GIRL
A SISSY AND HER SECRETS
TO NONE SHE’LL EVER TELL
TILL THE RIGHT ONE COMES ALONG
AND CASTS HER SEDUCTIVE SPELL
Dear journal – week 2
there are so many. i do not know where or how to start. what started as something as simple and mild as wearing panties and bra and doing my hair and acting only a little feminine in my room at home became something more kinky and maybe even twisted.
i like feeling feminine when i dress up. i like expressing femininity. i like to feel sexy and desirable. i like looking the part and emulating the more beautiful half of the human species as best i can.
i like feeling that way with another female present. i like having sex that way and fantasizing its a lesbian love affair. it feels so soft and sensual and erotic and so loving. and being accepted and encouraged to do it more makes it even more special.
and omg! if you are lucky enough to have a girlfriend who is bold enough to take it a step further and use toys on your sissy pussy to “make you feel like a woman” or correct you in your mannerisms to be more feminine while dressed up or become more dominant and make you go down on her if you cum before she was satisfied. oh my god! those were the days. *giggles*
since we broke up two things happened with my sissy fantasies. first, i purged and swore i would never be a sissy again. but then after some time went by i started having those fantasies again. but they were more kinky and more twisted. i started fantasizing about being dominated more. i started fantasizing about being feminized. and sissified.
fantasies of being made to look more feminine and sexy turned into fantasies about being made to wear makeup and feminize my body by shaving and wearing corsets and waist cincher to make my shape more feminine.
fantasies of acting more feminine turned into fantasies of being forced to change my behavior and mannerisms on a daily basis in ritualistic ways.
fantasies of going down on my ex-girlfriend’s pussy after having sex turned into going down her after she had sex with another man.
fantasies of my girlfriend using a toy on my pussy turned into fantasies of being fucked with a strapon. being taken. being made her bitch.
those fantasies turned into fantasies of being made to act feminine around other guys and having sex with them.
sissy begins her sissification
and my sissy dreams have become reality now that i have met Mistress Ann. starting with wearing lip gloss every morning which makes me think about my cum slut fantasies. *blushing* and sissy shopping assignments like buying finger nail polish. one lite pink called Wishful Pinking and one darker shade of pink called Sweet Sunrise. and other girly things when my Mistress sees that i am ready for the next step. and keeping me reminded that i am a sissy and focused on my sissy thoughts and feelings by writing in my sissy journal. writing my sissy thoughts and feelings and experiences and wearing lip gloss everyday keep me so aroused all the time now! i have butterflies in my stomach every time i write or even think about what i am going to write knowing others are going to read it and not just my Mistress. i have played with my sissy clitty every night ever since i became Her sissy!
i love being controlled and dominated and becoming a better sissy for Mistress Ann. i love being encouraged and seduced and reinforced in our sessions together. i will do anything to please my Mistress.
After reading sissykendra’s 2nd journal entry and having O/our session, W/we followed up with an instant message chat where I gave My sissy further instructions and graded this week’s journal entry.
Mistress Ann: Hello sissy
sissykendra: hiiiiiii Mistress *smiles*
Mistress Ann: how is sissy doing this week?
sissykendra: I am doing fine, thank You
sissykendra: and how are You this evening?
Mistress Ann: Mmmmm, I’m great!
Mistress Ann: sissy was instructed to get nail polish this week, did you obey?
sissykendra: yes i did, Mistress. i bought one in lite pink and one in a deeper shade pink as instructed.
Mistress Ann: and did you paint your toes when you got home as I instructed you?
sissykendra: yes Maam i have. they’re very pretty *smiles*
Mistress Ann: It’s unacceptable for sissy NOT to have your toes ALWAYS looking pretty from this point on, understand?
sissykendra: You mean everyday??
sissykendra: omg Mistress
Mistress Ann: yes, sissy. Every single day!
Mistress Ann: and I don’t want them chipped, or looking unkept! keep those toes looking pretty and feminine for Mistress.
sissykendra: yes Mistress. i understand
Mistress Ann: very good, sissygirl
sissykendra: thank You Mistress *smiles*
Mistress Ann: Now let’s talk about your poem
sissykendra: yes, Maam?
Mistress Ann: you state in the poem that “a sissy and her secrets, to none she’ll ever tell, til the right one comes along, and casts her seductive spell”
Mistress Ann: has a seductive spell been cast on My sissykendra?
sissykendra: *blushing* yes Maam I think so *smiles*
Mistress Ann: go on
sissykendra: ummmmm welll
sissykendra: i think its a submissive thing, being controlled by a sexy FemDom
sissykendra: its doing something to me
sissykendra: because I never talk about my sissy fantasies and desires with anyone
sissykendra: but with You ummm You somehow coaxed them out of me *smiles*
Mistress Ann: oh sissy, Mistress will dig deep inside that girly head of yours, and dig out ALL your darkest, deepest secrets
sissykendra: *blushing* oh that gives me butterflies!
Mistress Ann: if you mean by butterflies, My strap on, then your right on the money
sissykendra: *smiles* i can’t wait!
Mistress Ann: can’t wait for what?
Mistress Ann: ~wicked laugh~
sissykendra: for Mistress to use Her strapon on me?
Mistress Ann: Mmmmm, I can’t wait to hear My sissy moan with pleasure when I fuck her and make her My sissy bitch!
Mistress Ann: lesbian love affair
Mistress Ann: how much does My sissy desire to have a lesbian love affair with Mistress
sissykendra: omg Ms Ann! I can hardly express! my heart melts when i think about doing that with Mistress *smiles*
sissykendra: i think that would be soooo delicious!
Mistress Ann: sissykendra better be ready to worship Mistress’s body, and MAYBE someday you will work up to having a lesbian affair with Me
sissykendra: yes Mistress *smiles* I would be soooo honored
Mistress Ann: Mistress understands that your fire was lit by your girlfriend, but from this point on, you will totally focus on being dedicated to Mistress, and pleasing ME
sissykendra: that is all i think about, Mistress *smiles* all day everyday!
sissykendra: i think i’m having dreams of You at night. Because I wake with an erection every morning now
Mistress Ann: excuse Me? I don’t think sissies have erections, do they?
sissykendra: ummmm I wake up with a swollen clitty *blush*
Mistress Ann: that’s better. Every waking hour you are to remember what you are inside. your EVERY thought will be, “How do I please Mistress Ann”
sissykendra: yes Mistress *smiles*
Mistress Ann: praying to My big black strap on as it takes your pussy ass
sissykendra: i think i’m getting wet!
Mistress Ann: focusing on being MY playtoy in front of My girlfriends as I have you parade around in skimpy lingerie
sissykendra: omg Mistress! ummm omg!
Mistress Ann: striving hard to become MY number one sissy slut
Mistress Ann: doing WHATEVER it takes
sissykendra: yes Maam i will do my sissy best to please You. and thank You for letting me buy panties this week. i have been dying to wear panties again!
Mistress Ann: you WILL put lipgloss on those cock sucking lips EVERY morning, and EVERY night
Mistress Ann: Because I know what that makes My slutty sissy think about ~wink~ And I want My sissy thinking about that on a daily basis. Understood?
sissykendra: *blush* yes Mistress
Mistress Ann: And Mistress looks forward to spanking your ass in those panties into deeper submission
sissykendra: yes Mistress
sissykendra: omg! i LOVE what You’re doing to me!
Mistress Ann: sissykendra’s journal entry is a good start, but I’m only giving it a C minus this week.
sissykendra: *pout* did i displease Mistress?
Mistress Ann: sissy will open up and explore your thoughts and desires more. Sharing fantasies that you have of Mistress using you for MY pleasure
sissykendra: yes Maam *smiles*
Mistress Ann: During O/our next session, your ass will be reminded that your ex-girlfriend no longer has a hold on you, but that you are MY complete property. you are MINE to control.
sissykendra: yes Maam i love being owned by You now *smiles*
Mistress Ann: Mistress understands that it will take sissy time to open up even more, but I do expect progress with every journal entry
sissykendra: yes Maam i do not want to displease You, Mistress
Mistress Ann: you will continue your next entry with fantasies of a sissy, and I will expect a segment especially dedicated to cock
sissykendra: *blush* yes Maam ….. and ummmmm, what about cock? lol
Mistress Ann: that My dear sissy, will be your thoughts
Mistress Ann: what you think about when you fantasize about cock. Do you think about sucking cock? being fucked by a man? pleasing a man? pleasing Mistress? I want to know YOUR sissy fantasies and desires when you play with your clitty and think about sucking cock for Mistress. Is that understood, sissy?
sissykendra: yes, Mistress *blushing soooo much!*
Mistress Ann: and one last thing, sissykendra
sissykendra: yes Mistress?
Mistress Ann: On your next journal entry, you WILL come up with a chant/mantra, or devotion that you WILL say to Mistress EVERYTIME W/we talk/message.
sissykendra: *smiles* yes Maam i will. like a sissy affirmation? or, what is it for?
Mistress Ann: to show your devotion to Mistress
sissykendra: yes maam, so this will be like how i greet Mistress from now on?
Mistress Ann: that is correct
sissykendra: yes Mistress *smiles*
Mistress Ann: due to the holidays, I will expect your next entry in two weeks
sissykendra: yes Maam. i hope You have a wonderful time this Christmas, Mistress
sissykendra: i will try to be at Your Christmas party this Saturday too, but i don’t know if i can make it
Mistress Ann: sissykendra?
sissykendra: yes Maam?
Mistress Ann: are you dreaming of a white Christmas this year?
sissykendra: ummmm yes Maam. But I don’t think that’s going to happen
Mistress Ann: sissy is instructed to kneel at the keyboard every morning between now and Christmas, check your pretty toes, apply lip gloss to your cock sucking sissy lips and type “I’m dreaming of a white Christmas” to Mistress
Mistress Ann: and sissykendra is to make a girly mess first thing on Christmas morning, of course licking up the luscious mess with your mouth.
sissykendra: *blush* are You serious?
Mistress Ann: are You questioning Me?
sissykendra: no Maam
Mistress Ann: That is My present to you, sissy
sissykendra: *giggles* yes Maam
Mistress Ann: I’m waiting…
Mistress Ann: what does sissy say when given a gift from Mistress?
sissykendra: oh. Thank You, Mistress Ann *smiles*
Mistress Ann: say it properly, sissygirl
sissykendra: thank You for letting me clean up my girly mess with my mouth for Christmas, Ms Ann *smiles*
Mistress Ann: good girl
Mistress Ann: Now. Any questions for Mistress before I dismiss your sissy ass?
sissykendra: ummmm. No Maam I can’t think of anything
Mistress Ann: Tell Me sissykendra, how did you enjoy tasting your cum for Mistress during O/our last session?
sissykendra: it made me ummmm….. well i’m blushing. it makes me feel more submissive to You *smiles* like it weakens me but gives me those wonderful butterflies
sissykendra: dizzy with lust
sissykendra: i can’t believe i did that!
Mistress Ann: Believe it sissy, because everytime I ALLOW you to make a girly mess, you WILL clean it up with your mouth!
sissykendra: yes, Mistress
Mistress Ann: sissy sluts mouths were made for licking up cum!
Mistress Ann: especially for Mistress’s enjoyment!
sissykendra: that makes me smile
sissykendra: omg! i’m such a sissy!
Mistress Ann: Now off with yourself sissy, dream of cock and cum!
sissykendra: *smiles* yes Mistress. have a great night! and have a great Christmas, Mistress! You deserve it! *hugs & kisses*
Mistress Ann: I know visions of cock will be dancing in your sissy head! xoxoxoxoxox
Mistress Ann: And have those pretty panties by this Saturday, sissy!
sissykendra: yes, ma’am!
Mistress Ann: ~kisses~
sissykendra: *sissy kisses*